Information about dating me

So a friend on Facebook had asked me several questions about me and dating…it was more of a general poking for information email.  So instead I told him that I would write this, because if one guy wonders…there is going to be more….so this will be used as basic information.

I don’t have a type of guy.  When I was younger, yes I had a type.  The guy had to be tall, long hair and with blue/hazel/green eyes.  That was my type of guy.  That guy had me drooling or foaming at the mouth.. eventually as time went on the length of hair was not that important.    Now, I am looking for a great guy….he’s not always going to be nice, but he will know how to have a conversation with me…know how to treat me and of course have some morals and values.

I know that is very simple.  The reason is because love comes in any form.  It could be a guy that has noticed me and he is not even on my radar and a few simple acts of kindness may grab my attention.  I am unaware however of men liking me.  Yes, I am focused and busy on life that I don’t pay attention.  I am use to hearing cat calls and degrading comments where I shoot them evil looks.

But once you have gotten my attention and you are on my radar…here’s a few things that you should know:

I do have a high sex drive for the right guy.  I am not 90-years old and if let’s say sex does happen and you know how to do it…more likely I am going to want more, but it is more of a spiritual thing.  Many cultures believe that having sex brings the two souls as one.  Now….that doesn’t mean that my legs pry apart for any guy.  It means that if you can get past all the other things…there could be sex.  Why did I put it first because that is where 90% of the guys mind is…on sex.

Next is that I am an intellectual being.  If I tell you what is on my mind or in my heart…I am giving you every detail for you to formulate about me.  I know guys would have some weird infatuation about me but can’t even hold a conversation with me.  Unfortunate they fall off my radar and they wonder why and no matter how hard I tell them-they assume that I am talking about some sort of sex talk.   Again, I do enjoy sex talk…it’s funny and perverted and it can be enjoyable for some who are not virgin nun ears.   I do not like a guy who is always talking about it…even though it is fun, but if I am talking about publishing and such and it goes right back to sex talk…that will turn me off.  Again, it is fun and all but not all the time.

I am a logical and rational being, if a guy tells me something that is harsh and cold.  I will remove the emotional state and think how they meant it.  If I am confused, I will refer to a friend’s opinion.  No, I will not bash the guy because we all know friends and family tend to side that the person can be a bad guy or girl.  I hate that.  I ask for the basic situation…the what if??  What do you think it means in this situation??  Sometimes being in the heart of the situation causes undo rest in oneself and you need a second opinion.

I am intense and have been told this by a numerous people.  If you are afraid of a woman that knows what she wants or where she wants to go in life….then stop and find someone else more your style.  I will challenge you to strive to become better, if you look at it as a bad thing…again…stop….find someone else more your style.  When I have set my goals in place and start to move forward on them-I can become very intense.  If I like a guy…and I mean truly like a guy…there is no half assing it.  I am not going to give the guy 20% of myself.  I am going to give him 100% of me…that is how I go….All or nothing.  Like the saying goes…can’t handle the fire …then get out of the kitchen.

If a guy gets to the point of asking me on a date, he’ll need to understand that I have a daughter and I do have a rule.  He pays for babysitting…that simple. I love movies, long walks on the beach and even hiking.  The date does not have to cost much….if the guy is going for brownie points and yes, I am going to list that here…he may even include my daughter, but she does have autism and tends to get over stimulated.   Showing patience with her will give you brownie points with me….since she is my universe.

Now, I have no interest in a guy that I have to chase.  I have done it before and it is a hassle.  The guy later comes across some sort victim like I stalked him.. So if a guy wants me then he has done his research and wants to keep me as his.

There are times that we all can become insecure and not know what you want.  I am okay with that, but if you mention on a numerous times about your confusion-then I will walk away even if I like the guy.  It is not my job to make a man realize what he wants.  If he pursued me and showed interest in me than it is something to say that he wants to keep me.  I am fairly easy to keep….but granted most guys don’t know what they want with a woman like me.

I am a romantic.  Even though I write horror, I am a die-hard romantic.  Let’s say the hypothetical and that I did walk away and you want me back….grab some courage and do what you are thinking.  Trust me…major brownie points will be awarded and you will release my hidden feminine side.   It’s like a cat that has been abused.  It takes trust.   I am a woman…I may not show it all the time, but I am a woman.

I am demented and twisted, but don’t think for one moment that is going to happen to you, What I write or think is two different things than my actions.  Which leads back to being a romantic and I know most guys never get to experience it because it doesn’t get to that point.  I do like to hug, I like to cook and all those female domestic things and I love being appreciated.  If I am not going to be appreciated…I have friends and family that do and there is no point in you being in my life.

Honesty….I love honesty, but not that joking, smart ass honesty because reality I am logical and may not grasp it.  Be straight forward with me.  I give a guy brownie points for being direct with me. 

I don’t compete for any one’s time.  If a guy that is interested in me picks his friends over a date with me-I will continue to allow that till you don’t hear from me.  My daughter’s father would force me to make that choice for him.  Either I make him chose me or his friends.  If you pick your friends over the woman you claim to love-then it is safe to say….you are infatuated with me…and please let me go.  I have no problem with a guy having friends, but if you blow me off for your friends in the start of the stages of “wanting to get to know me”-it’s safe to say that I won’t be getting any of your time if we are together. Which goes back to having to chase a guy and I won’t do that again.

If you want to make time for me, please regard the simple fact that I have a daughter. I plan my life around her.  If you want to have a home cooked meal and watch a movie…please join us.  We are a loving duo that is looking to make it a trio.

I am a geek.  I love horror movies, anime, video games, and all the wonderful such. Now if you want to be my date to a film festival and all that stuff…please…remember that I will geek out.

I am a firm believer in second chances.  Sometimes I may appear so intense and passionate that it gives a guy the frights, but if he is really interested…he can always try again.  We are not perfect.  We all make mistakes and I am one of those women that loves to try again.

If you are intrigued by me, please research me….learn what is my favorite things…don’t assume that watching my Facebook page is going to provide you all the answers.  Don’t assume that I am not going to look your direction.  I have a lot on my mind and at times have blinders on…so…a friendly hello is welcoming and if you keep it up in wonderful warm conversations….you will grab my attention….now the rest is really up to you

Again this is some basic stuff.  I want a guy who knows what he wants.  He can be a bit insecure, he can be goofy and he can also know when to be serious.  He can be calm, cool and collected to my fire.  It is said that opposites attract but I would love to build a solid foundation in friendship…so…reality is…I am looking for a soul that can play with my demons and be at ease in my presence.

I am not a Goddess after all…even though I joke about it

 

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

 

Legal information about blogs and other things…..

When a person is cyberstalking and cyber harassment there is a set of laws.  And one, it has been brought to my attention that a couple of photos that are used on this blog is being used on a just for fun site on Facebook. Two-that is considered breach of privacy laws, especially when using an intellectual property of a likeness of a person and second-cyber harassment and a major sign of cyber stalking.  On this “Just for Fun” page it claims the FBI were contacted and my daughter’s blog was reported….so I went to the FBI website.

“The IC3 accepts online Internet crime complaints from either the actual victim or from a third party to the complainant. We can best process your complaint if we receive accurate and complete information from you. Therefore, we request that you provide the following information when filing a complaint:

Your name

Your mailing address

Your telephone number

The name, address, telephone number, and Web address, if available, of the individual or organization you believe defrauded you.

Specific details on how, why, and when you believe you were defrauded.

Any other relevant information you believe is necessary to support your complaint.”

The FBI removed their link to Social Media sites. The person’s picture that is being used gave permission to use it on Serenity’s fan page and her blog.  This is not a website, it is a blog and as the blog owner-I know the standard steps it takes to get a blog taken down by Google.  You will need numerous reports to Google where they will do an investigation.  When they feel they have enough evidence, they contact the admin of the blog. 

If names were not used in your blog-it could be about anyone.  If you are the one reporting the blog because you feel it is about you-the owner of the blog can then report you for “CYBER STALKING” since the name of the person was not used. 

All the blogs are all linked to a source or so.  My daughter’s blog is linked to her fan page and you “MUST” go to her fan page to access said blog.  If you access her blog via her Fan Page—it is a clear stage of “CYBER STALKING” & “CYBER HARASSMENT”

Blogs written rarely contain names and if they do-they do not have “ANY” last names.  Last names link a person and with that can result in a civil suit.  Many people know their rights of free speech, but when you use names and I do mean-full blown names-you are on grounds of privacy, slander and so forth/

Furthermore the FBI does not get involved with blogs where names are not used and you are using your horrible experiences as information to other people.   That is freedom of Speech.  You are free to discuss your experiences without the use of names.   The people in question may or may not innocent, but you are free to discuss the situation with your fans or readers.

As a writer of several blogs, I have discussed several horrible life experiences and have shared them with the public.  Now, when you are using fact and just gossip as information, you need to back it up with witnesses.  Since a couple of my admin have PDF, screenshot things where a certain individual has shown that she has mentioned my name, used intellectual property without permission-it has gotten to the point…that this is gotten ridiculous.  I have evidence to back up my claims of information used on the “blog” in question.

As a writer, I know full well there is more than 2-sides to the story and yet when you are going around accusing someone of living in a place for years-have the evidence to back it up.  When you are spreading gossip, please make sure that the person is “IN FACT” doing what you are claiming.  I have seen countless times that people spread their own gossip.  “She said this”, when in fact-nothing was uttered from my mouth.  “She is doing this”-when in fact, I am introvert….I barely socialize with many people, especially where I live.  My thing is, please use fact when talking about someone.  When a person makes a scene in front of many people and it gets back to you, especially that it is caught on camera and when you know this person-IT MAKES YOU CRINGE.  It’s that “DAMN, I CAN’T BELIEVE I KNOW THAT PERSON” moment and you make excuses for them.

The thing is, where I live-I barely associate with anyone.  It’s more of a friendly nod, because since I have lived and worked there-people can pop…and I do mean like popcorn pop.  One moment they look fine, just sitting there like a little kernel and one false move and they “POP”

I have heard horror story upon horror story-of people that have known a person to just “POP” and it doesn’t help that they are a liar…and not the kind of liar that is spreading one or two lies, but the kind that believes their own lies.  It sucks, but people are out there like that and I thought this person that was said and done-can move one….but sadly-they do not know the law. 

This blog is for information for others who may write a blog or even if you are writing notes or long statuses-NEVER MENTION NAMES!!!  NEVER POST PICTURES WITHOUT THE PERMISSION AND NEVER…NEVER THINK THAT THE FBI WILL GET INVLOVED IN A CIVIL MATTER.  THEY WILL DIRECT YOU TO YOUR LOCAL POLICE STATION.

Thank you

Square one

I decided to keep the blog. 

Yes, I know.  A great opening line, I did however after much ponder and thought decided to keep the blog.  Just need to put more time and effort into it like I did in the beginning. 

It seems with every beginning it will take more to crawl than to run.  It seems that with the latest fiasco has me in such anger than anything. 

I have never met someone so jealous or spiteful in my life that they love to blame the other person.  But like in anything I believe in “Just rewards”, because being a Karma believer that a person trying to harm another will eventually get harmed in the end.  It may take years or right away.

Eventually everyone feels the harm they have done to another.  I have a set of faith beliefs in place.  Granted they may not be what everyone practices, but I do not cause harm to another.  I do not believe in talking bad about another person.  I do not believe that hurting a family because you are a liar.

So in retrospect to everything.  I have decided to go back to square one.  I had asked people for help and got nowhere.

So as of today, it is a new slate.  A new everything…we’ll go forward renewed….

Irenia Guajardo

~Hellz Writer~

Closing

I think I may be closing my personal blog or open a new one. Only because reading the posts.  I have come a long way. Some were memories of a relationship that no longer existed and I was foolish enough to think he felt anything for me.  Even to the point of having several female stalkers harass me....even to the point where they acted like they had no idea why I was upset with them.
I have PTSD...and with that....I stay the hell away from people that I don't like.  I mean, I don't search for people that I want nothing to do with.  In the start of it, I was so mad, but as time went on...I realized that no matter what...they will always be there.  Creating fake accounts, trying to start something and instead of saying anything.  I just report them.
Last year, I had found something by accident and they acted like it was some sort of lesson for me.  But reality was...they don't get it that I save and PDF everything they did. All simple notes to point at their harassing problem.
But I am above all that.  I read through my blogs...and I see loads of heart ache.  Pain and suffering.  Trials and tests.  Yes, when I started blogging....I had a great following on one page.  Then the problems started and I have since then created three blogs.  I guess it shows who was bothering whom.
But nothing was as awesome as that first blog.  I allowed comments.  I held conversations with my following and now.  I keep comments closed.  I have to moderate everything because of kids that can't read nor could they comprehend simple logic.
I am thinking of wiping the slate clean.  No memories of them.  Start fresh. I haven't even blogged here because of the constant monitoring and I did enjoy my personal blogs.  To some it made a difference and I miss that.  Hopefully, I can have that back....hopefully.


Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Why did the rabbit cross the road??

  GEORGE W. BUSH”
We don't really care why the rabbit crossed the road. We just want to know if the rabbit is on our side of the road or not. The rabbit is either with us or it is against us. There is no middle ground here.

  AL GORE:
Immediately after I was born in a modest log cabin that I built with my own hands in Tennessee, I invented the rabbit. I also invented the   road. Therefore, the rabbit crossing the road represented the application   Of these two different functions of government in a new, reinvented way designed to bring greater services to the American people.

  RALPH NADER:
The rabbit's habitat on the original side of the road had been polluted by unchecked industrialist greed. The rabbit did not reach the unspoiled habitat on the other side of the road because it was crushed by the wheels of a Gas-Guzzling SUV.

  PAT BUCHANAN:
 To steal a job from a decent, hard-working American.

  RUSH LIMBAUGH:
 I don't know why the rabbit crossed the road, but I'll bet it was getting a government grant to cross the road, and I'll bet someone out there Is already forming a support group to help rabbits with   Crossing-the-Road Syndrome. Can you believe this? How much more of this can real Americans take? Rabbits crossing the road paid for by their tax dollars -- and when I say tax dollars, I'm talking about your money -- money the government took from you to build roads for rabbits to cross.

  JERRY FALWELL:
Because the rabbit had an alternative life style! Isn't it obvious?   Can't you people see the plain truth in front of your face? The rabbit   was going to the "other side." That's what they call it "the other side."   Yes, my friends, that rabbit had an alternative lifestyle. And, if you   eat that rabbit, you will become that way too. I say we boycott all rabbit 'til we sort out this abomination that the liberal media white washes with seemingly harmless phrases like "the other side."

  DR. SEUSS:
 Did the rabbit cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes, the rabbit crossed the road, -- But why it crossed, I've not been told!

  ERNEST HEMINGWAY:
  To die. In the rain. Alone.

  MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.:
 I envision a world where all rabbits will be free to cross roads.   Without having their motives called into question.

  GRANDPA:
 In my day, we didn't ask why the rabbit crossed the road. Someone told us that the rabbit crossed the road, and that was good enough for us.

  BARBARA WALTERS:
Isn't that interesting? In a few moments we will be listening to the Rabbit tell, for the first time, the heart-warming story of how it experienced a serious case of molting and went on to accomplish its life-long dream of crossing the road.

  JOHN LENNON:
 Imagine all the rabbits crossing roads in peace.

  ARISTOTLE:
 It is the nature of rabbits to cross the road.

  KARL MARX:
 It was a historical inevitability.

  SADDAM HUSSEIN:
This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were quite justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.

  VOLTAIRE:
 I may not agree with what the rabbit did, but I will defend to the death its right to do it.

  RONALD REAGAN:
What rabbit?

  CAPTAIN KIRK:

To boldly go where no rabbit has gone before.

  FOX MULDER:
You saw it cross the road with your own eyes! How many more rabbits have to cross before you believe it?

  SIGMUND FREUD:

The fact that you are at all concerned that the rabbit crossed the road reveals your underlying???????? in security.

  BILL GATES:
I have just released e-Rabbit 2011, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook, and Internet Explorer is an inextricable part of e-Rabbit.

  MARTHA STEWART:

No one called to warn me, which way that rabbit was going. I had a standing order at the farmer's market to sell my eggs when the price dropped to a certain level. No little bird gave me any insider information.

  ALBERT EINSTEIN:
Did the rabbit really cross the road or did the road move beneath the rabbit?

  BILL CLINTON:
I did not cross the road with THAT rabbit. What do you mean by rabbit? Could you define "rabbit," please?

  THE BIBLE:
And God came down from the heavens, and He said unto the rabbit, "Thou shalt cross the road." And the rabbit crossed the road, and there was much rejoicing.

  COLONEL SANDERS:
Rabbit?

  TYSON FOODS:
We found it squashed on the road, resurrected and sold it.

What dafuq??

Have you ever heard something so strange and unusual that you question...why the fuck are your telling me this??  It happens all the time....and it is strange that no matter how strange I hear this shit....it still leaves wondering....questioning....
WHAT DAFUQ!!!??
What dafuq was the purpose of that?? What are you thinking??
But the more we say that...the more it seems that it is always happening...and it gets worse and worse and worse.
According to the Bible....it is stated that if you honor thy mother and thy father that you will be blessed with a a prosperous life.  Yet....I don't know if that is suppose to be a great thing because it seems that honoring....seems to be at times a bit excessive.
With everything going on....I am actually tired of how my mother has been acting.  My father in a strange twist of events has turned around and be the good guy.  It seems that he is better as a long distance relationship.  
My mother on the other hand had offered to help me...not because I needed her...but she offered.  I could have gone and sought a babysitter and gotten free bus tickets.  But she offered to drive and babysit and I thought that was great.
Yet....as it turned out....I was blamed that she missed work interviews because of me.  BECAUSE OF ME!!  OR MY FAVORITE BECAUSE I COULDN"T FIND A BABYSITTER!!!  Like now...I have found a couple of people that can babysit and one lady was going to charge $15 per day...$25 for 12-hours. Reality that is not bad. 
So my mother talks to her money hungry Christian friends...and no disrespect to my Christian friends who read this....but she comes back that she should have been paid $25 for 8-hours and $50 for overnights....but it seemed that she is talking professional rates.  Which I have talked to several people ...and some people will cut you a deal...with $15 a day....even though it would be nice....to pay $25 when you can afford it.  But the thing is...she loves to use how I don't want to help her find a job....and all I want her to do is babysit. 
As funny as it was...the original agreement...was she babysits and I find the job and then...I find a babysitter...and she gets a job....I find my own place to live...she can stay until she has enough money and she can move out.
It is not that difficult...but she doesn't do that...she instead just bitches and complains about everything.  It's funny that the other day, she was telling about this lady that she met on the bus.  How "Monica" told her how great it was that she "NEVER" had kids.  How kids are such a problem??
I mean she is telling me this shit.  I mean....WHAT DAFUQ???
She once told me that when you repeat something...it's because you felt the same too....but in life...sometimes you repeat shit because you just spew it out...
So earlier today...she tells me that I should work on her resume...and do all this shit...when in fact I had my to do list.  She went to the library.....was gone for 3-hours.  Why the fuck couldn't she do it herself??  But again....I had to set my time for her. 
I did that in Oregon back in April.  I had thought I could job hunt and work on my resume, because as funny as it was that Tim was willing to watch my daughter....and all it would cost me...is smokes and making sure his phone was on.  Tim was technically low maintenance in comparison to my mother and father.
Yet everyone thought Tim was the infection and my mother the remedy....in fact it is the opposite.  My mother is actually a lot worse than Tim and my father put together. 
The woman is never happy and it's not my fault that my brother kicked her out.  She really didn't want to leave and not only that but she didn't want to live with me.....so I got stuck with her.  It's been hard because she doesn't want to help with anything.....she claims to wash her dish, but doesn't do anything else....she leaves her trash instead of throwing it out...she doesn't help with shit....
Yes, babysitting...big deal...she didn't like any of the other sitters I picked....so I told her today after her final blow up in my face....she can do what ever she wants....because I have ...had enough.  I am the bad guy no matter what....she loves to twists facts...times and shit like that....it's pathetic....
I had enough and I try not to post all the dramatic shit on my page because that is not great....not only that but since my miscarriage I have had 3-yeast infections and horrible ones.....to the point....and yes...I had poured peroxide on my private part just for it to dry out...and it worked....for at least a day...I take allergy medication to help ease the itching...and I have gone to the hospital where they have given me a shot...a pill...to help get rid of this....
I don't wear underwear to prevent any other chance of getting more yeast infections, but it doesn't help....my entire body chemistry is out of whack!! But does she care...no...she just complains about everything...and I mean everything....
It becomes to be a drain and a drag, because I am suppose to set everything aside after she belittles me....and I am suppose to go gun hoe for her...So next week...I'll be looking for more work and having the extra cash to pay for a babysitter...so I won't be needing her....anymore...I'm done with this constant bad daughter thing...and I have no need for it any more....
Telling me about how Monica tells her about how she travels the world....well go after Monica since nothing holds you back....
She once had told me that I shouldn't struggle alone...and she said this shit when Tim was leaving...so it was like...okay...I can deal with the blow about Tim leaving...but reality is...there is no reset button...and well...I finally had enough of this bullshit...
I mean how many women....put their family first!!!??  NOT MANY!!  NOT MANY AT ALL!!! Most women or men...are a drama drain on their parents...and instead...I have been trying...to ease this woman's depression about how my brother treated her...but enough is enough...
It's just time to cut the cord...and let her just go...let her leave her life....no more of anything....we do our thing and she does hers because...this 50-50% bullshit was really 90-10%....and I wait to see what her schedule is like...to work around it...and not anymore...
Like I told my friend, Chris....enough is enough....time to cut the cord!! I haven't lived with this woman since I was 13-years old and now I understand...why I stayed away from my family because they'll never approve of me nor love me....and I am sick and tired of it...

But in new starts...you need to remove the bullshit!!  I have a new author's site...and I would like to move towards that direction about more writing...

To be continued......

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~

Things you never say to a man

1. I've smoked fatter joints than that.
2. Ahhhh, it's cute.
3. Why don't we just cuddle?
4. You know they have surgery to fix that.
5. Make it dance.
6. Can I paint a smiley face on it?
7. Wow, and your feet are so big.
8. It's OK, we'll work around it.
9. Will it squeak if I squeeze it?
10. Oh no... a flash headache.
11. (giggle and point)
12. Can I be honest with you?
13. How sweet, you brought incense.
14. This explains your car.
15. Maybe if we water it, it'll grow.
16. Why is God punishing me?
17. At least this won't take long.
18. I never saw one like that before.
19. But it still works, right?
20. It looks so unused.
21. Maybe it looks better in natural light.
22. Why don't we skip right to the cigarettes?
23. Are you cold?
24. If you get me real drunk first.
25. Is that an optical illusion?
26. What is that?
27. It's a good thing you have so many other talents.
28. Does it come with an air pump?
29. So this is why you're supposed to judge people on personality.
30. I guess this makes me the 'early bird.

Irenia Guajardo
~Hellz Writer~